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Saturday, May 17, 2008

Life after common test

hi.i hate myself.haha.cause i know i must enjoy myself after the common test and be reaping the efforts i put in by getting A1s and A2s but i can't seem to reach A1.it just seems so far away.just this term alone so far i have like 3 Cs already,out of 9 subjects.i won't consider that actually good in a class standard of mine.even the way teachers scold us they add in the phrase'you are class 2 point 1.you shouldn't be getting such marks/i shouldn't be expecting such behaviour from you people.'

for the past week when i got back my results i really felt like just breaking down and cry which i did when i got back my mathematics marks.i reaaly don't understand why my classmates can get 80-90 plus but i just simply can't.i feel like such a failure.at this point of time, i really need consolation since my grades are slipping.i asked myself if it was my fault,if i was the one who didn't put in enough effort but i really did my best.sigh.i really dunno what to do.can you feel my stress and pain?

i am really thankful for friends like jasmine,yingjia,yee tin,wye syn,xin yu,iris,zi qi,chun hsin,gracious,vivian,mei xi and many others. they have given me a lot of encouragement and joy.i really thank them from the depth of my heart.cos without them i wouldn't have made it this far.they have helped me through thick and thin.thanks.

all i hope for now is to get at least an A1 in literature and i would be truly happy. i feel kinda emo now.haha. i have like cip on monday and my group has not even finished the boards for display.

i had p6 open house today. it was really a fun and painful experience. i got to have a taste of what it means to be a tour guide. i must be better prepared for such events in future cos i was kinda freaking out and i didn't really memorise my lines. however i really hope the parents did learn something about the school. my feet is still hurting from the court shoes that i was wearing.haha.but all in all it was fun. got to go now bye.

(Ruby) ♥ 5/17/2008 06:19:00 PM