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Friday, November 7, 2008

Uncertainty

hello. i have this sudden uncertainty in my heart that i may not get into 3a1. after the appeal was submitted, i thought i may have a chance after all. butnow, thinking about it, the day of the results being only a mere 8 days away, i can't help but think about what if i don't get into my desired clss. what if i don't do well when i didn't get into the class i want. even if i did, would i do well?
such questions keep popping into my head. i can't help it. the uncertainty is building up. i feel so alone now that my close friends are all in different classes and me not knowing which class i may end up in. i thought about what bi hui said to me today. about me being the last few even if i get into 3a1. i'd have this massive bulk of stress on my shoulders and all. i don't think i'd be able to cope with syf coming up and me not knowing if i hold a place in the team who is going for the competition. with the prefectorial duties coming up as well as the project that i took part in. and most importantly my studies and my family. i don't even think i have time for them anymore. what should i do?
this is so confusing. i feel like i'm being rammed in the face by huge bolders of responsibilities and problems for me to solve. i'm really tired both physically and mentally.
miss those at people peer lite camp
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIXI!!!

(Ruby) ♥ 11/07/2008 11:04:00 PM