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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Past, Present and Future

Hey people. I had this sudden urge to wanna blog. I was talking to Janelle online recently and she mentioned about how time flies by so quicky that in just a few months time, we'll be having our last pb installation, last pb handover, last founders day, last sports day, etc. It just suddenly struck me that PB has impacted me and enriched my life in PL greatly. Looking through all the photos of the times in PB, I realised that I made many great friends who go through thick and thin with me, and care about me greatly. I really appreciate all of you! (:

Suddenly deep in my heart, I wish that time would just slow down and not go by so quickly. I don't want the goodbyes to come so quickly, where i have to part with my beloved friends.
I don't want the Os to come either. It's scaring me that I only have less than a year to study for this major exam that's going to be such a big milestone in my life. I keep telling myself that I have to do well, but can I really do it? I dunno. But I really hope so...

Time please stop at this very moment....

(Ruby) ♥ 11/26/2009 10:12:00 PM

Friday, November 6, 2009

Back from Hiatus

Hello. it has been very long since I last posted. Like really long, I can see the pile of dust that was accumulating over time. So much has happened during this period of hiatus that made me realise how much I should treasure those around me.

Coping with school life and people's expectations of me. Which reminds me of what Amanda told me over a conversation a while back. I can't remember the exact words she used but she was telling me about marks being the most important but whether we would work hard after that. I realised that however that may be, it's very difficult to really accomplish that. Because of this practical and realistic society, everyone's just so caught up in achievements and accolades and they would forget the really important things in life.

After getting back my results recently, I realised how little effort I have put in and how my attitude towards school has changed over time. When having the teacher-pupil conferencing a few days back, Mrs C asked me a few questions that really stumped me. She asked, "How do you recharge yourself when you are stressed?" and "How do you feel towards school/ coming to school now compared to the past?" I haven't really thought about those things and when those questions were thrown to me, I really didn't know how to answer her. I guess I don't really feel that passion towards school that I had when I was younger. I just kinda feel very tired about everything and wish that everything would just stop for a moment for me to catch a breather. Looking at my results made me reflect about what I should do this holiday instead of playing. I feel so broken down after knowing all the holiday assignments and how much time I have left before next year's O levels. It really scares me, the way time flies by so fast. I feel like I won't have enough energy by the time O levels really come. I really think I should thank all those around me like my family, Chun, Vivian, Jas, Iris, Theng Hiang, Wye Syn, Gracious, Yee Tin, Ying Jia, Amanda, Leong, Janelle, Wei Qin, Bi Hui, 3A1, all my close friends and of course all teachers who have taught me. Without all of you, I'd probably wouldn't press on until today and would probably have given up halfway.

Thanks to-
Wye Syn: For creating ATP and giving me the best memories of my teenage life.
Chun: For being there for me when I needed it and just being your sotong self.
Vivian: For being so funny and being there to encourage me.
Jas: For being the best class buddy ever! and for listening to me complain.
Iris: For being the one who brings nice food during potluck.
Theng Hiang: For being the math genius you are.
Gracious: For being so joyful and loving JAM!
Yee Tin: For being the most adorable bear and being good in your academics to help poor me.
YingJia: For being that funny and 'ruby's-house-food-loving-friend'.
Amanda: For telling me lame jokes and having lame jokes competition with me.
Leong: For being the best EL partner anyone could ever have and being there to listen to me.
Janelle: For trusting me and letting me be your listening ear.
Wei Qin: For being the only one who learns taekwondo with a sister in the same class as mine.
Bi Hui: For being the cute little friend :D

Thanks to you all for being there for me. I'll treasure you always!

(Ruby) ♥ 11/06/2009 10:00:00 PM