hello. it has been a week since i last posted. have been busy mugging for the common tests. i don't think i will reap great results this time especially for e math and chemistry and english. nothing is going as i planned. i'm just super tired, trying to study and all. chem was horrible, terrible, vegetable. haha. what am i going to do when i don't get the expected results? i can just visualize everyone looking at me with faces of disappointment. thinkng back, i really wonder if i had made the right choice to appeal to get into 3A1. maybe life in 3a2 would be less stressful. sometimes i just wish for everything to just end. but i know that cannot be. maybe im just fated for such a life.i don't think i can hold out for much longer. my body is failing me and i'm totally breaking down. i wish for myself to just fall and never get up again. life's unfair. why do some people never study and always get the grades they want? but i study like crazy but always end up disappointed. i don't want to resign to such a fate. i want to break down, cry and just sleep my life away...... |
